Scitzophrnia truth of fiction?

I was once labeled a parinoid sctzophinc and my family was told that I would always be that way and
would probably be in a mental hospital for the rest of my life. For 25 years after this I was in and out
of all sorts of programs and institutions. My family stood by me through all these years, but through
all the programs I went through I lived in a world of self-pitty, and attempted suicide many times. With
the medication I was taking I did hear voices tell me to harm others or myself. I found that my problem
was that I gave my will and my life over to a higher power, and always believed that others knew what
was best for me. I believed all the lies of others ways of seeing me and stayed in a world of depression.
I later found out that the ones in my own family were the only ones who really loved me, and all the
others that were trieng to help me would only tell me deciet, and self-rightiousness and did this through what they thought was love and compassion. I finally learned they didn't really care about me they were just doing this so they could feel better about themselves. After 25 years of scitzophrenic hell I
finally realized that God wouldn't do a thing for me until I first stood up and did something for myself.
First I told my shrink to take all the anti-sycotics and shove them. I went through Hell trieng to detox
from these drugs on my own, but I knew if I would have went to the Hospital they would have just told me that I just wasn't taking my medication and I would have just ended up right back were I started from. After a couple of weeks off my med's I felt just like a brand new person, and it seemed as though my sctzophrenia had went away. I soon found out through groups like nami that before I
could get rid of it for good I must first stand up to all the disrespect, and judgements I was recieving
from others. Once I did this all that love and compassion I was recieving quicly turned into contempt
and hate, and I was kicked out of nami. I was totally crushed, thank God for my mother. She was decieved by them at first so we went to the Hospital to find out why I was to sick to be in a group for
the mentally ill. I found an honest shrink when I went to the hospital this time. At this time I had been
off my medication for about a year. She said that she couldn't see any signs of mental illness within me, and I souldn't have been on anti-sycoyics for all those years anyhow. Both my mother and myself
found out something elese also. That was that a 40 plus year old man should be able to have his own
views and opinions, and be given the freedom that any other American citizen should have. We found out also that everything my mother was told by nami all consisted of lies and fabrications. When I went back to my regular shrink I found out the reason why I had to suffer all these years with
this and it was all a lie to begin with anyhow. I looked at old medication statements and realized that
the mental heath system was loosing over 500$ a month from my SSI. It's all about the money and
who really cares if others suffer in the first place as long as they get thier money. Today I still live with my mother, and she tells me everyday that she didn't know what she would do without me. I also found a place in this system that wasn't filled with self-rightious fools. This place is called Oasis house and they accept me just as I am. Through helping others and the respect of staff here I have learnd to have respect, and love for myself as well as others. I was once told I would never understand the whole conversations of others, and that I would never be able to work agian.
If you look at all the labels put on me throughout the years you could have called me a worse case
scitzo. I found that after I stopped taking my crazy pills, and stood up to all the judgements cast agianst me I actually started to like myself. When I look back on it today I would much rather be respected for who I am rather than be pittyed, and shown fake love and comassion anyway. Today I have been off my crazy pills for over 5 years, and finally found the peace and serinity I was surching for all my life. Today I am a published arthor and I love life. What a change from wishing I was never
born. I found the reason why 80% of scitzophrenia we see today is all brought on by the people who
judge them and put them down, and thier heart is just to big to stand up for themselves in fear of
offending them. All we have to do is follow our hearts, and do the next right thing for yourself instead
of what right in the eyes of others. Just be yourself, and you to may recover. Hell if God saved a wrech like me he would do it for anybody. I do know that some people with scitzophenia are born with
an enlarged frontal lobe in thier brain, and it is doubtful that they will ever recover, but there is always
hope and don't let anybody tell you differnt or you may have this illness for the rest of your life.
I LOVE YOU ALL
EGGMAN